My Son's Change of Plans



My son, Holden has decided to postpone his top surgery for a couple of months.

Prepared to go tomorrow I’m a bit stunned by his change in plans.  Writing seems to help me put things in perspective.

It’s not about Holden changing his mind and how this affects me.  It’s about what he is going through, how he’s processing what he needs.  This is a very important time in his life.



I’m not getting on the United Airlines flight tomorrow to travel to Berlin.  My tickets are cancelled.  




Supporting Holden right now is supporting his decision.  I love him and trust he’ll get through this set back.   

But….oh how I want to be there.  To be his mom.  

Holden, During the Lunar Eclipse



We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.   e.m. forster





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