I Can Ease The Pain




My eyes burn from the day. 

From the unceremonious goodbye to the U.P., leaving me in salty tears.

From squinting through sunglasses in the all white, blizzard-like trip from the Mackinac Bridge to Cheboygan (to get a new sleep machine), and then on to Pellston.  All this with the defroster on full blast to keep the windshield from icing up.



The burn from the swirling mist of the motel whirlpool, as I soaked in the bubbly, heated water, watching the frigid wind blow past the huge windows next to me.  

Burning from the unsuccessful attempt to watch a horrible HBO movie.  I could almost feel my eyes dilating, trying to let in some light.  Most of the filming was done in shadows, using rapids movements not unlike a video game.





From the forced, hot air blowing from the small heater under the motel window, with its wide, vertical-striped curtains.

Maybe even from sleep deprivation the last few nights.  It all starts to add up and topple from the weight.  I'm glad I don't get migraines.  It would be one of those times I'd have to retrace the many triggers. 

I don't have to medicate to ease the pain.  I just need to set my phone alarm, fill up the water container to my sleep machine, picture my sister meeting me in Nashville at the airport in the morning, and let my head hit the pillow.  

Tomorrow, early, I will be heading for a new adventure.  I can feel my eyes begin to get their sparkle back just thinking about it.  Getting a sweet call from my sister in Iron Mountain, helped ease the triggers, too. 

Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day.  Next year I plan on being in Ann Arbor to join in hundreds of celebratory events planned around the city to honor his memory.  I want to end with a few of his quotes.

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."  MLK Jr.

"If you can't fly then run, If you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward." MLK Jr.

As my sufferings mounted I soon realized that there were two ways in which I could respond to my situation--either to react with bitterness or seek to transform the suffering into a creative force.  I decided to follow the latter course."  Martin Luther King Jr.







     

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