God Bless You, Jacqueline

Thinking through my day, I've had better.  Many better than today.  But my judgement on my day clouded my thinking.  I expected more.  I wanted more.  I got today.  Disappointment is easy when I put my expectations too high.  I know that but I can't help myself sometimes.

Heidi is now a gradate of U of M.  I wanted to not feel okay about not being there this weekend.  I tried but it didn't work.  Being a mother is full-time, forever.  I wanted to be the one there to hug her and congratulate her and cry during the ceremony.  It's impossible to separate myself from being a mom.

Elizabeth will soon move to California to begin working on her doctorate.  I'm already seeing the thousands of miles and unread books separating us.  The mom kicks in and makes me anticipate and worry.

I think about Jacqueline and the "mom" spells she must be in right now.  She gets today, too.  I hope and pray she will have a good day and Mary Jean will surprise everyone with a quick recovery.  Today was the day she was to run the 1/2 marathon she has been training so long for. Her heart must feel like it has been running the whole marathon today.

After thoughts about Jacqueline I can quit worrying about my simplistic day and my selfish expectations.  Hope all is well in Tennessee. God bless you, Jacqueline.


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